Hey everyone! It’s been a few weeks since my last post. However, during this time, God has been dealing with me A LOT. As mentioned before, I recently relocated back to my hometown, so I’ve been trying to just get reacquainted with the city and find my place. In these three weeks, I have learned so much about faith and perseverance. It was a little rocky at first, but each day God has been speaking to me and revealing things like never before. Sounds crazy, but I’m thankful for the isolation because it has taught me so much.
One of the things God spoke to me about was using my time wisely. I’ll admit – sometimes all I want to do is sleep and it honestly got worse the first week I moved back home. However, God spoke to me about neglecting the things I need to do. I was complaining that I didn’t have anything to work on, but honestly there is so much to accomplish!
Then it hit me. Just because I don’t have anything lined up right now, doesn’t mean that I can’t continue to build my brand. I need to use my time wisely and start using the resources God has given me.
One thing I neglected was my YouTube channel. In the beginning of the year, I was really on it. I was making videos consistently. Then I got tired all of the time because I was working two jobs in Tampa and the little time that I did have to myself, I wanted to sleep or hang out with friends. Months and months went by and not a single video was recorded. If I did record a video, it would be very mediocre. Shame, shame, shame.
So I’m getting back on the right track. These past few weeks have taught me a lot on being productive. It was time for me to do less neglecting and complaining. I have a lot of free time now that I’m job searching, so there really aren’t an excuses as to why I can’t dedicate more time for my brand.
“Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through prophecy when the body of elders laid their hands on you” (1 Timothy 4:14).
Are you neglecting a gift that God gave you? Are you wasting everyday by sleeping instead of being productive? Are you putting something off for next week that you could be doing today? Trust me I was the same way, especially once I moved back home. It can be so easy to do. I know we need rest from time to time, but don’t become lazy. I struggled with laziness for a while, but thank God for rebooting my energy and my drive to keep going.
Take the time and write a list of things that you can do to help get your momentum going. The day before the first day of school, my sister asked if I could take my nephews to school until I found a job. My first thought was that I didn’t want to wake up so early but as I started taking them to school, I became more productive. I started going to the gym right after I dropped them off and then before you knew it, I was making videos, planning photoshoots, cleaning, researching jobs, cooking and reading. Honestly if my sister didn’t ask me to take her kids to school, I probably would’ve slept in each day until noon and wasted the day away out of self-pity. God always helps us, even when we don’t realize it.
If your struggling with neglect, I pray that this week and beyond you become more productive. It is not easy but once you find your rhythm, it will be very rewarding.
Hey y’all! It’s been a couple of weeks since I last posted due to moving back home and getting settled in, but I’m back! I must admit these past weeks have been exciting and confusing at the same time. I’m excited to be back with my family and watch my nephews grow taller every time I lay eyes on them. I’m also excited to have a fresh new start with the understanding that God is in control despite my circumstances. With the excitement also comes with nervousness because of the unknown about when and how things will get done. How does moving back home align with God’s will? (Read last post on why I moved back home). Even when I ask this question though, I laugh at myself because it is not my place and it’s beyond my comprehension to figure out everything God has set up for me.
This past Sunday, my friend invited me to her aunt’s church, The Citadel Church of Jacksonville, under the leadership of Bishop Terry Hill, Jr. It was my first time attending so I was pretty excited and praying that I would receive a right on time word.
Whew, I did.
Bishop Hill came from Genesis 22: 1-11 and the title of his message was, “This is a Test”, based on the story of Abraham. I love the story of Abraham because his faith was like no other. When I think of the word “faith”, I automatically think of Abraham and Joseph. I love how they remained faithful to God even when it didn’t make sense. They remained faithful even when all odds were against them.
In the message, Bishop Hill spoke on how God tested Abraham by asking him to sacrifice his promised son, Isaac. Think about that for a moment. Here is Abraham enjoying his son that took so long for his wife Sarah to conceive and God requests that he sacrifices him. I’m sure Abraham was mad confused and sad, but he prepared to do it.
In the middle of him about to sacrifice Isaac, an angel appears to Abraham and says, “Do not lay a hand on the boy. Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son” (Genesis 22: 12).
Then Bishop Hill asked the congregation an important question:
How many of us can really give God everything?
When the bishop asked this question, I immediately thought about my return to Jacksonville. I couldn’t help but think wow God is this a test? Did you test me to see how much I really trust you? To see if I would give up the city I loved (Tampa) so much? To see what I would get rid of in order to fully receive what you have for me?
Abraham was asked to do something far out of this world. And here I was back in a city I had no desire to return to, but I chose to obey God rather than follow my own fleshy desires. If I had it my way, I would’ve still been in Tampa laughing it up with my friends, going to both of my jobs or just laying down in my bed watching Netflix.
But now I come back to Jacksonville with no job lined up, no way to really see how things are going to work out and having the feeling that I need to reestablish myself to get my career started.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28).
The unknown is a scary place but knowing that I obeyed God, I can have peace knowing that everything will work out.
Can you love God when you feel like you’re losing? How obedient are you? Do you just want to hear God when it applies to something that you want to do? What about when it’s something you don’t want to do? Will you go out of your comfort zone? These were all questions that the bishop asked during his sermon that truly made me think.
In that moment I really had to reflect on my first few days living back in Jacksonville. I don’t like how it feels but I will not fail this test! I will put my trust in God.
That is my prayer for you all today. Whatever God has told you to do, do it. Understand that the sacrifice being made will later bring you a reward so big beyond your wildest dream. When God asks us to give up something, know in your heart he will bring you something better.
Be encouraged and never give up. I love you.
Faith Walkers! I hope you all have been enjoying your summer so far. I have been working nonstop trying to secure the bag, but as always, God is great and a provider! I am so excited to be back again this week with another blog post. I love writing these blogs, because it’s a time for me to be transparent with you guys and show you all that we are all on this journey together.
With that being said, let me share with y’all what’s been going on.
I tend to be private about some things, but I believe God put this on my heart to share so that I can help someone else that may be going through and experiencing the same thing. If you truly know me, you know that I’ve always been so against going back home after college. The idea of it always made me feel as if I was moving backwards in life instead of moving forward. I have a special place in my heart for the city that raised me, but I never saw it as an opportunity to “make it”. I was always thinking about the next big city for my next big break.
Well, I’m moving back home. I know, totally shocking to say the least, but it’s something I’ve been praying about for a while now. I started praying on it when I received an offer to move to West Virginia. With any decision I make, I go into prayer about it. This offer even caused me to fast because of the uncertainty I had. To make a long story short, the Lord told me not to go to West Virginia, but instead, go back home.
I couldn’t believe at first that God was telling me to do the exact opposite of what I wanted to do. They always say, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans”. I was in my head saying, “Wow God! You know good and well that’s the last thing I want to do.”
Whew chile, the audacity!
I did not take it well at first. I went into instant panic mode. How would it look if I moved back home? How would others see me? I had to rebuke the enemy because he was trying to make me disobey God and nope, disobeying was not going to be an option!
So I thought about how often times we pray and say, “Lord whatever you tell me to do, I will obey you”. Now what happens when He tells you to do something out of your comfort zone? What if he tells you to do something that you sincerely just don’t want to do? What happens when you get put to the test like Abraham did when he was asked to sacrifice Isaac? Would you do it?
I was reminded of these questions. I had to slap myself and say, “Wow God since you’re telling me to do this, I have no choice but to obey you.” I talked about obedience in a previous blog post and here I was being tested. To make a long story short, I simply said, “yes”. I’ve been at peace about moving home ever since.
“For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently” (Romans 8:24-24).
Although I don't know what’s all in store for me when I go back to Jacksonville, I am confident that God will do something mighty powerful. I’ve been waiting patiently and I will continue to do so because I know where my strength comes from. I know that God’s will triumphs my own. He is already opening doors that I cannot see yet and making a way out of no way.
In no way am I telling you all to pack up and move back in with your parents, but I am saying that if you’re in this same situation, know that you are not alone. You are not a failure just because you have to go back to a familiar place. If God is telling you to go somewhere, it will all make sense eventually. It’s not our job to make sense of it right now. We just have to obey. Wherever God is leading you to go, have peace knowing that He has his hands over your life! I can’t wait to update you all!
Even though my birthday is in May, I have a special place in my heart for the month of June, because it represents the halfway mark. It is the sixth month of the year and causes a time for reflection. Earlier this month, I reflected back on the past six months and wrote down the things I’ve accomplished, the things I’ve learned, and the things I have yet to accomplish. The first half of the year has been rewarding in some areas, but there are still so many things that I would like to achieve.
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. (Isaiah 43:18-19).”
Even though I have yet to accomplish some of the things that are on my vision board, this month God has been putting the word “new” in my spirit.
As I read this scripture over and over, I don’t think of ‘new’ as in material things, but more so a new spirit. Getting rid of the old and living in the new. Walking more into what God has called me to do.
I was lying in bed one morning getting ready to read my Bible, and the Lord put in my spirit to read the story of Saul and his experience on the road to Damascus (read Acts chapter 9 for reference). Saul’s conversion is one of my favorite stories in the Bible because it’s incredible to me how a man can go from persecuting God’s people, to leading people to follow Christ. I always say that if God can use Saul (later only referred to as Paul), then He can use ANYBODY!
Saul was persecuting believers that followed Jesus. As you can imagine, the people were afraid of him. So how crazy it must have been to see the man that you once was afraid of, now telling you about Christ. But only Jesus could do that transformation in Saul. Jesus said, “Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?” (Acts 9:4). As you further read, you’ll find out in that chapter that Saul gave his life to Christ and was baptized.
“And to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness” (Ephesians 4:24).
Saul was a new man. So much of a new man that he later went by the name Paul. While reading, God reminded me of a conversation I had with a coworker a few weeks ago. In this conversation, my coworker had just won “Employee of the Month” and I was joking around with him asking how he won the title when he hasn’t been working that long.
“I’ve been working here for over a year and no one has ever recognized me”, I said jokingly.
My coworker replied, “Well have you tried being nice to people? Have you tried to have a relationship with managers and customers? It doesn’t hurt to simply say hello to people when you walk past them. I know it’s difficult to work here but if you practice just saying hello, I promise your day will go by a lot quicker.”
Whew. He read me that day.
I couldn’t even get upset because I knew my attitude needed to change and how I thought about my job. God has a unique way of telling you to get your act together.
As I was remembering this conversation while reading my word, I felt God telling me that in order for me to get the new things, I need to have a new spirit. How can I want the things I’ve prayed for to come to past, but have a bad attitude at work? How can I pray and ask God for another job, when I barely speak to customers when they’ve done nothing to me. I know that disappoints God.
Just like Saul decided to get his self together and live life God’s way, we have to do that. You could be the most saved out of your family and friends, but we must self-reflect from time to time. What toxic traits do we have? How can our attitudes be adjusted? How can we be better friends? Better Christians?
Is it still hard for me to walk into work sometimes? Most definitely. But in that I can say I have been working hard to do better. I started smiling more, speaking to people more and overall just being around to help others. My coworker was right. it does make the day go by quicker.
My prayer this week for you is to self-reflect. The old man in us has to die in order for us to be created new in Him. What more does God want from you? What is He saying for you to do? Ask yourself these questions this week and pray that He reveals it to you.
On Memorial Day weekend, I went to visit my family back home in Jacksonville, FL. It was a wonderful trip filled with love, laughter, theme parks and quality time. On that Sunday, my mom had to minister in song in Palatka, FL for their Blue Crab Festival. I decided to ride along to support her. Palatka is about 45 minutes away from Jacksonville, so it’s a pretty decent ride to sneak a nap in since it was so early in the morning. My mom had an idea of how to get there, but we had the GPS on our phones just in case. We weren’t in the car for a full five minutes before my mom told me to type the address in the GPS.
As we were driving getting ready to get on the express way, the GPS was taking us another route that was not too familiar with my mom. She said, “I don’t know why it’s taking us this way when Palatka is on I-95”. So instead of following where the GPS was taking us, she decided to take her own route. I laughed because I knew how this was going to end up. I knew we were going to eventually get lost and need the GPS to reroute us.
We indeed got lost.
When we got to I-95, the GPS rerouted us again. This was the third time by this point. I said, “Mom, we are going to be late if it continues to reroute us. Let’s just follow what the GPS is telling us to do.” She finally agreed with me.
Once we finally decided to obey where the GPS was telling us to go, a word from God hit me and made me ask a question.
How many times do we as believers think we have it all together and know the way to take when God is trying to tell us to go another route? Or maybe we know what God is telling us to do or understand the vision He has for us, but think we don’t need any help to get there.
I started to reflect on my own life during the rest of the drive to Palatka. Sometimes we make it harder on ourselves during our journey when we don’t listen. Sometimes we go through unnecessary troubles and hardships to reach a destination when God already made it a smooth journey from the beginning! Why do we do this? We think we know what to do without seeking God first and in the end it makes it harder for us!
Oh but we serve a God that will still reroute us when we mess up and try to do it on our own! When my mom and I finally decided to follow the GPS, the time took longer for us to get to Palatka. What could’ve been a 45 minute trip, took us over an hour to get there. If you know me personally, you know I HATE BEING LATE! It is my biggest pet peeve in life. But once we got to our destination, God spoke to me. God is so merciful that even when we do think we can do a task without Him, He still shows us grace when we decide to give it all to Him! It will take us longer to get there since we weren’t obedient to Him the first time, but we will still get there!
Trust me, I’ve been there before when I’ve rushed God and thought I could do it all on my own and ended up having to surrender it all to Him. I thank God for not giving up on me during those times when I was trying to go my own way. He won’t give up on you either! If you are currently trying to do your own thing and go your own way without God’s help then you need to stop, repent and ask for forgiveness. It’s never too late! He will reroute you to the right direction and you will reach your destination. God is a great God! You may get rerouted, but don’t take it as a punishment. Learn some things while you’re being rerouted.
This week I decided to do a vlog with my dad, Frederick Walker! Whenever I'm feeling low, my dad always has the right thing to say. He has been waiting a long time for God to do one specific thing, but I've never seen him give up on Him. Not once! Feel free to like comment and subscribe to my channel!
Video Link: https://youtu.be/HkU0VyoQdmw