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Hello faith walkers! I pray you all are being safe in this huge coronavirus epidemic our nation is facing. If you're like me, I am very tired of hearing about it to be honest. It's to the point I have temporarily gotten off of social media and the internet so that I can focus more on Jesus and put my energy in His word. I did want to take this moment, however, to be honest about what I'm currently going through in life in hopes to help encourage someone else. This thing is real life and real people are being affected by it physically or financially. I am one of those people that have been affected by this virus financially.
So as many of you know many things are closed down. Many people are working from home for safety measures, while there are some not working at all and not sure when they'll next paycheck will be. I am one of those individuals. Yes, your girl is not working and to be honest, I cried my eyes out when I was first told.
Many of you also know that I am a reporter for a very small company. My job is heavily based on financial support from sponsors in which we create content for. Yes our show airs on the news, but we are in no way under the news station. The coronavirus has affected the livelihood of those sponsors which in return has affected my job and my role. To make a long story short, no sponsors equals no money for Tyrah.
So I went into work Monday being told that we had to close shop until this whole thing blows over. I'm going to keep it real with you all. I cried. I went in so happy and thankful that I still had a job to go to despite the chaos surrounding me. Then reality hit and next I was home crying not knowing how my bills were going to get paid. I had such a fun time in New Orleans the week prior with my family to only be hit in the chest a few days later.
Before this happened, I was not scared of the virus. I was walking around saying, "I'm covered under the blood! We got this!" But when I got home, I found myself scared. I found myself crying over and over again asking God why would he allow this to happen to me! I had no words. I was it total shock and I didn't want to talk to anyone, not even my parents.
After my pity party was over I got the courage to text my bible study group to tell them what was happening and that I needed their prayers. Immediately they prayed for me. I started to slowly feel the strength coming back. That is why it's important to have a group of believers in your corner to help you get through the tough times. At that time I needed prayer warriors, not someone that was going to tell me something I didn't need to hear.
I started praying. I started reading different chapters in the bible to help gain my strength. In that moment I heard God tell me to go on a three day fast and just focus on him.
"Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and woke him saying, 'Lord, save us! We're going to drown!' He replied, 'You of little faith, why are you so afraid?' Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm." (Matthew 8: 24-26 NIV)
I reflected on that scripture and went over to Youtube to watch a visual. Imagine Jesus big chilling on the boat snoring while the disciples are franticly trying to row a boat on their own. If I was one of the disciples I probably would've asked, "How can this man be sleeping through all of this?!"
Isn't that what we think when times get hard? We ask why is God letting this happen to us? We may think that God is sleeping on our situation, but he's not. He knew this was going to happen before I even knew about my company. This didn't take God by surprise.
Time and time again, God has proven to me that he is with me and will never leave me so why would he start leaving me now? There is a popular song by Deitrick Haddon called, "He Never Fails". Take a listen if you want. The video is below.
I love this song so much. It's just a gentle reminder that God is right there and He's never failed me yet and He never will.
I'm praying for you all. I pray that God's peace rests on you like never before. I ask that you all keep me in your prayers as well. Although this situation isn't the best to be in, I know that God is Jehovah Jireh which means, "The Lord will provide". I know God's word to be true.
Keep the faith loves. We walk by faith and not by sight. It may look very bleak right now, but Psalms 91 verse 1 reminds us that, "Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty."
I love you,
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