Faith Walkers! I hope you all have been enjoying your summer so far. I have been working nonstop trying to secure the bag, but as always, God is great and a provider! I am so excited to be back again this week with another blog post. I love writing these blogs, because it’s a time for me to be transparent with you guys and show you all that we are all on this journey together.
With that being said, let me share with y’all what’s been going on.
I tend to be private about some things, but I believe God put this on my heart to share so that I can help someone else that may be going through and experiencing the same thing. If you truly know me, you know that I’ve always been so against going back home after college. The idea of it always made me feel as if I was moving backwards in life instead of moving forward. I have a special place in my heart for the city that raised me, but I never saw it as an opportunity to “make it”. I was always thinking about the next big city for my next big break.
Well, I’m moving back home. I know, totally shocking to say the least, but it’s something I’ve been praying about for a while now. I started praying on it when I received an offer to move to West Virginia. With any decision I make, I go into prayer about it. This offer even caused me to fast because of the uncertainty I had. To make a long story short, the Lord told me not to go to West Virginia, but instead, go back home.
I couldn’t believe at first that God was telling me to do the exact opposite of what I wanted to do. They always say, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans”. I was in my head saying, “Wow God! You know good and well that’s the last thing I want to do.”
Whew chile, the audacity!
I did not take it well at first. I went into instant panic mode. How would it look if I moved back home? How would others see me? I had to rebuke the enemy because he was trying to make me disobey God and nope, disobeying was not going to be an option!
So I thought about how often times we pray and say, “Lord whatever you tell me to do, I will obey you”. Now what happens when He tells you to do something out of your comfort zone? What if he tells you to do something that you sincerely just don’t want to do? What happens when you get put to the test like Abraham did when he was asked to sacrifice Isaac? Would you do it?
I was reminded of these questions. I had to slap myself and say, “Wow God since you’re telling me to do this, I have no choice but to obey you.” I talked about obedience in a previous blog post and here I was being tested. To make a long story short, I simply said, “yes”. I’ve been at peace about moving home ever since.
“For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently” (Romans 8:24-24).
Although I don't know what’s all in store for me when I go back to Jacksonville, I am confident that God will do something mighty powerful. I’ve been waiting patiently and I will continue to do so because I know where my strength comes from. I know that God’s will triumphs my own. He is already opening doors that I cannot see yet and making a way out of no way.
In no way am I telling you all to pack up and move back in with your parents, but I am saying that if you’re in this same situation, know that you are not alone. You are not a failure just because you have to go back to a familiar place. If God is telling you to go somewhere, it will all make sense eventually. It’s not our job to make sense of it right now. We just have to obey. Wherever God is leading you to go, have peace knowing that He has his hands over your life! I can’t wait to update you all!